Last entry..

I actually planned to post this before 2009. Oh well, best excuse ever? ohtoobusy.

This will be the last entry for my dingAling-ish account, I'd wanted to erase the past entries and stick around somemore but i've decided. 09? fresh start how bout that? New and shiny uppp but no personal settings, no entries yet. Wait around for the link!

08 was indeed the craziest. A year that I hurt and love those thats dear to me so so fiercely. A year that I learned, knowing how to let go brings you great insights and free your loved ones from pain. Looking back, there were so many times i wished 08 would just end there and then. Working here made me realize, no one can be trusted except your family, except friendships thats forged over the years(cello,jess). Too cynical, too many stabbers, bitches, tards and all that you can think of. Hi,bye seriously suffice for these people.

Start of 09 was bad ass. NO vitamin B was a killer fact. Doomed the whole office & everyone started ringing ideas of "No B tees", "No B caps", etc. Big pang of mood swings affected a little on our dear ny eve but STILL we had a great couple time.

Birthday was deeply appreciated. Despite some Fs thats indeed not even really there for well wishes or even bother to remember(omg), was still fun. Baby's chain of surprises made my dreams come true at 00:00 27th dec. 'HappyBirthdayILoveYou' candles shed tears instantly. Cakes, shutter crazy with family tho somehow they looked restless and a big huge flowery thingy pop up behind the pillar like a huge sunshine. Most memorable birthday really(safe to say that,100%).

Won't disappear, promise. Just a change of environment.... yet again.

Great 09!
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    working working

on christmas eve..

baby wandered 7 hours, idling, walking around aimlessly just to wait for me to get off work...

7 hours + countdown with strangers...

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    touched touched


5am,work. was glad everything worked out ok in the end. 7th dec steve aoki! anyone?
saw your entries, that spur of moment to click on your blog again. was it affinity?
i wonder. didn't believe you would do something like that still. then again i prolly
shock you too.
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    lethargic lethargic


old ling is dead. It's time to letgo,of pasts,of myself.
might not have the same faith anymore. but life goes on.

“I love you, and because I love you, I would sooner have you hate me for telling you the truth than adore me for telling you lies.”
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What happens to a relationship that is drowning in lies ? A road that leads to destruction and a dysfunctional partnership.

Life is tough this year. Endless dilemmas, bumpy rides and things that really took me by surprise. Just when you thought the ship has sailed and happiness is within grasp, it's gone in the blink of an eye. Melancholy overwhelmed me, at times it was too suffocating to be in this predicament. You just don't know what's right and what's wrong anymore.

It's been a long hiatus and my life has been like a soap drama of late. I miss Zyn's, Cello's, Kt, Nat's entries and I hope you guys update your journals soon. I love to read :)

Jess came back and that was one of the happiest moment in '08. Shes still as bubbly, when she left I got emotional but I held back my tears. Come back soon dear friend. I'm missing you already.
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    Dainty Kane - Damaged


You face your left and then your right. Your legs brought you to the left path but you are still undecided.

" You are already walking, don't ever look back "
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    Oboe Concerto

Wedding; love

Hello world, it's been 2 months! Been thinking of what to post these 2 months.. job? r/s? family? friends? I'm not too sure myself. Maybe I should be long gone from the blogging world, well..... not yet, not yet.

Finally! My dear cousin is married! We're not really that close, in fact there was a period of time I distanced myself from him cause I was really scared of his loud voice, sorta ah beng character. Oops. Turns out, we got closer for the first time on his wedding day =)

He needed help with some reception work at the hotel and I agreed readily when he asked. It was a special night indeed. I've been to a couple of weddings, none of it really really touched me and I thought to myself, " ah, another wedding to attend, let's get it done and over with ". When the video they made were shown, his smiles and laughter were something that I haven't seen before. When they were making their speech, it touched me deeply to see how my sis-in-law was brimming with tears when she mentioned about her parents and her brother. Almost shed a tear or two when her brother rushed up to offer her some tissues and they hugged.

Not to mention, my uncle. Giving all my blessings to their family!

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    sleepy sleepy

Stop & Stare

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make a move, I'm shaking off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years

Steady hands, just take the wheel
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal
For the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah, I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, ohhh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here, not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can you see what I see

They're trying to come back, all my senses push
Untie the weight bags, I never thought I could

Steady feet, don't fail me now
I'm a-run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah, I know that everyone gets scared
I've become what I can't be
Oh, do you see what I see

Exactly how I'm feeling right now..
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    One Republic - Stop & Stare